waha,finally,we are over,and i'm over him,too,really 
i'm sooo happy.my life is way happier than before.i'm better now.thanks to him,without him i wouldn't learn. yehey!i have a new love now but we're not together yet,syempre.hehe
wow.3 days na siya hindi nagpaparamdam.sad sad.nu ba yan.la akong kwenta magblog.haha.sorry naman.kung ano lang talaga pumasok sa utak ko yun lang talaga nilalagay ko eeh.hai..i don't know what i feel anymore..
is my love starting to weaken?
naguguluhan na ko.sobra.pag decided na kong lumayo,ikaw naman yung nagreareach-out.gumugulo tuloy lalo.hindi ko sila sinusunod kasi nag-eexpect ako na magbabago pa.pero kelan pa mangyayari yun?sana ngayon na..
it's been a month (i think) since i last made a blog.i've been to busy in school.yeah,i had summer classes because of comparative anatomy.hai,it's killing me.haha,really. i haven't been able to sleep well since then.i always need to study every night and prepare for the exam the next day but obviously i didn't do my best again.
hmm.
april 11:HIS birthday.he had a party but i was here at home.
april 12:we broke up.i gave up.i didn't care.i became numb.
april 13:my day.17 year.I was with WPG, Rooey,Paul and HIM that day.we spent almost the whole afternoon in a veneto in trinoma.i thought he wouldn't come because of the break-up. 2:30 he texted me and asked me where i am.and poof!he came!it was really weird.my friends left and HE is still there so we watched Shutter.and syempre,marupok ako pagdating sa kanya kaya naging kami ulit.i don't even know why i agreed to be with him again.ok na ko nun na hindi kami pero tinanggap ko parin kahit alam kong nahihirapan na ko.nagpakatanga nanaman ako
april 14:start of my summer classes.sinundo ako ng special friend ko sa school and hinatid ako sa street namin.
april 15-16:magkasabay kami ni special friend pumasok and umuwi
april 17: i went to my bf's house.sinundo ako ni special friend dun sa gate ng village nila.
april 18:well,sabay pa rin kami ni special.
april 21-25:sabay pa rin kami
april 29:special and i went to megamall to watch shutter.haha
ah basta everyday kami magkasama ni special.hai.am i unfaithful or am i just looking for someone to fill-in the things that my bf is supposed to do but he's not.marami na masyadong nangyayari.hindi kami tugma ng sched ng bf ko.super hirap ng time.8-4 siya.kami ni special 9-3 pareho but we're from different universities.
why did he become so cold to me.i feel so unimportant now?did everything really change aside from my love for him?i did everything i can to make this relationship work but now what's happening?why does it feel like i'm left here all alone?
sometimes,i wish i never loved someone coz i'm just hurting everytime i love.or maybe i am the problem,yeah,maybe.i am so happy when i'm with him but he doesn't seem to feel the same way for me.
sa bagay,sino ba naman ako,di ba?isang illusionada na nangangarap lang sa pag-ibig ng taong hindi naman talaga akin...masakit aminin na ganito nga..ako lang naman nagpilit na ibalik eh,bakit ko pa kasi pinilit ibalik kung mas masaya naman siya na wala ako.sana hindi ko nalang pinilit,mas nasasaktan lang ako.mas masakit na nasa akin siya pero alam kong ako nagpapalungkot sa kanya.di ba mas maganda kung wala ako sa kanya pero nalulungkot siya dahil sa pagkawala ko?naawa lang ba siya sakin kaya niya ko binalikan?
i know i can't get over him that's why i don't wanna let go.am i too selfish?yeah,i know,i am.